The Three and his fruits

Corey 

In week 6 we had Corey Hart to teach us , i never met her i mean personal but i did saw her in the hallways .

She smiled at me as she knew me for a long time , i really like that in her . she made me feel welcome here.

She also remembered my name , im not sure if i told her my name …

But i just like it in a person when they give u that attention , when u talk with them they look at you , they don't interrupt you're talking.

They are interested in you.

So many times when i talked to someone i could tell that person was not "there" they where thinking about other stuff, or interrupt you while you where talking  to them .

And Corey has a warming smile ! even her eyes smile .

She asked us "who she is" like is she an only child? or what kind of music dos she like? 

We based those answers on the little information we knew about her. so some things where wrong and some where good.

So often we look at God like that. What we know about Him or experienced with Him , thats How we see Him.

She gave us funny things to do like acting out a certain Psalm , We could act, sing , dance, draw or dramatic reading.

My group had to do Psalm 1 , we did that with acting and props .

It was fun to do , because of this i will remember Psalm 1 better.

Also the other groups where really good!

We talking about a tree , we had to draw a tree and she "filled" it .

The Soil     = environmental worldvieuw, the country, village u grew up in , ur family,  u cant change that. 

The Roots = You're basic core beliefs , God is infinite, God is uncreated, God has no beginning and no end, God is personal and relational, man are woman are created in the image of God, people have value.

The trunk of the tree = Values, a value assumes we all have the same rootsystem ,

We don't realize its there until its frustrates us.

We went outside and tried to see what is of value for God in Germany and ourselves.

I think God values the way we treat nature and animals, oure neighbor , the talents He gaves us, oure workduty's , He values life.

The branches = Decisions .

Oure decisions have to come out of oure value systems or they will have no strength.

The fruit of the tree = What u eventually do. 

What you think what is important what other people do , do u also do that.

She asked us ; " What are some of you're practices that you do that do not line up with what you believe"

And final the seeds of oure fruits = If oure fruits are good according to God  we can have the seeds from Exodus 20: 5+6 , He gives grace to thousands of them who love Him and keep His commands.

1. What is something that God is challenging you with this week? 

I learned that things need time to recover, God is working in me ,i need to let Him do that and give Him the time to do that.

We where reading in Exodus about the Israelites staying in the dessert for 40 years, there hearts needed to be changed and it sometimes takes a long time before we are changed.

Hopefully not 40 years but it will take time.

Me personally want bad things to be over with really fast but that will not help for recovery and being cured from it.

I learned that this week.

2. What are some things you learned about yourself this week through Cory's teachings from the "tree." 

I sometimes don't do the things i want other people to do, i learned that the way i act sometimes has to do with the country i grew up in and  the family i have.

I have to stay true to the basic core beliefs , that will give strength , realizing that God is personal makes me feel important in His eyes.

I learned to look different at scriptures because of the way we acted out the Psalms.

And some seeds are starting to grow inside of me and will bare fruit.

The different names of God , trough that u see His caring Heart.

3. Mini-Outreach! By now you know where you are going, what are your thoughts, feelings, etc.?

Im happy im going to Ukraine, i want to pray that God gives me a heart for this country and the people we are gonna meet.

I want to give my all in these 2 weeks , im really excited.

And hopefully learn a lot from it!

The week Fiona visited us .

Her teaching was about "Sin Repentence and the Cross" 

She tought us about leaking…so many times we do that, showing oure feeling with oure body , oure expressions.

She spoke about a lot of subjects we normally don't talk about 

She explained what we could do when we are in a difficult situation ( like anger, frustration or temptation)…Arrow up to God.

Pray to Him the moment u feel weak , ask for His help right away.

The thing that really impacted me was how she helped me letting go of fear i had inside me .

She wanted to have one on one talks with us, we talked at Wednesday evening.

That morning we got teaching from her, and i was feeling like i felt for a long time …just blank , num , no feelings, if i felt anything it would have bin anxiety , if u would asked me how i was doing i would have said ; i don't know.

And she saw that in me, whenever she asked a question she looked at me to see if she could some responds from me but i didn't answered her look.

But later that day when we had a one on one conversation.

She asked me how did i got her in YWAM , what was it that led me to Herrnhut.

I thought this might be the last time i see her so i might as well tell her the whole story , i have nothing to lose .

So i told her everything , i talked for almost 45 minutes , i felt like 5 minutes.

And she was amazed , i wasn't that person she met in class , i could actually talk ;p

She wondered why i was so quiet in class and not with her .

I told her about how i sometimes get nervous when im in a group , "scared" to share my opinion, " is my answer good enough? will my english talking be good?"

And i  just became quiet  and listened to everybodys else .

That nervous sometimes became much bigger and could end in panicking.

She suggested that the next day i would stand infront of the class and tell everyone how i felt and why i was sometimes so quiet.

That made me nervous 2 , but i did it , and its true , speaking out loud sets it free , it was so great seeing they all came up and stood around me and started praying for me .

That feeling is hard to describe but it was good.

And i keep reminding myself of this everytime that feeling of anxiety gets to me.

On thursday evening we had a extra session with her.

That session was also very important to us, the big wooden cross was lying on the ground , she had put bags with ashes there and buckets with soap and water.

She wanted us to worship God with oure eyes covered with sleeping masks, we couldn't watch anyone else .

We prayed to God and ask Him to reveil the  sins which where still inside us, the once we didn't confessed .

So i did that, and put the ashes on my hand , i prayed with Magdalena and she washed my hands clean , together we prayed again.

And as a reminder of this she put a red cord on my hand.

After it i still felt guilty , as if the devil was saying to me , you didn't confesed all of you're sins, so Fiona advised me to go back to Magdalena and pray with her again.

We did… and i felt walls being broken , and i prayed and prayed …

I will not forget that night.

Stories of how God worked in peoples lives.

1. Have you been inspired this week by hearing the story of Pick-a-Pocket? How so?

Yes i really bin inspired by there story's !

I'd love to listen to them , to hear God work in them.

I realized that no matter situation you are in God is there to.

Listening to Liz made me realize that God pushes trough even when you don't want to listen to His call.

I loved how she told about that she didn't wanted to do a DTS and had her reasons no to go.

But God took all these things away and guided her into DTS, i really liked her story!

The story of Ula, Ruth, Josh, Mona en Kristin was also a wonderful testimony of how God worked in them.

They had there struggles, it was not all just a romantic story; "we helped and saved people "

It was what they did (by the grace of God) but they shared the things written between the lines, the things u normal don't read.

I liked how they just started a cafe underneath a tree and gave the girls a new direction.

And how they walked from one village to another at the warmest time of the day , they listened to God.

Also the story about the baby's being killed in the tribes made a deep impact on me , this is so not what God wants.

More people must have went to the tribes and saw this awful thing, but i guess it takes a lot of faith and trust to actually do something about it.

I hope and pray that i also have the faith to listen to God's voice when He talks to me.

I also liked that Ula is now living in Ethiopia, i pray she gets her Visa.

The last teaching we had from Uly ( i hope i spelled his name correctly:) 

He spoke about action figures, and i learned a lot from his teaching .

Some quotes from the action figures ; 

"With great power comes great responsibility" from Spiderman.

" Nothing matters except the mission" from Batman.

Uly told about how Batman dos not have super power but is really smart and put these handy things in his Batbelt.

He gave us things to put in oure Bat belt ; here are some examples; 

1 train you're faith ; trust God.

2 Don not be afraid to make mistakes, dream , go for that, God is with you when you make mistakes.

3 The story of Erik;  "What would you like to do if you had all doors open"  "Don't do not do it". Have faith and go for what is on you'r heart"

4 Feed you're passion, it is you're responsibility to open up the Bible , to search God , to pray. Remember you're first love,

   have discipline to feed you're passion. Even when you don't want to, do it.

5 Endurance and commitment; Sometimes its hard because its just hard, something good can come out of it.

6 Pray; " Everything what i saw coming true, started with prayer."

7 "Do u really believe u can make a difference?"

And something that was important to me was ; " He will not allow us to miss the plan He has for us when we ask Him / pray to Him about it"

That takes away the worries i sometimes have about what God wants for me.

2. Was there anything you learned this week from the Pick-a-Pocket members experiences that you think will be helpful on outreach?

Yes they gave some "tips" that i think can b really helpful, for example ; Mona shared about having a heart for the country you are going on outreach to , she and Kristin adviced us to pray to God and ask that He would give us a love for the country.

To me thats important because i have a big heart for Israel and i know we are not going to Israel on Outreach ( still would love to go ;) 

so i want to pray and ask that God give me a heart for the country im going to on Outreach.

And really experience Out Reach, and let God work trough me .

3. It's good to make sure we are not forgetting the things we've learned about God from one week to the next. How are you practicing or using the things you've learned from previous weeks?

I read my notes again , just to study want i wrote down.

And when i'm in a bad mood i remember the things i learned.

And sometimes it feels like The Holy Spirit is telling me the things i learned about God .

Its a progress.

I always had a problem with praying, i didn't know how to pray or what to pray.

And here i learned how to talk with God , and this morning i went to prayer room and just started talking to God .

It really felt that He was listening, i know He did.

It was like talking to a person who is in the same room as you.

Pete's talking...

When Pete started talking at first i didnt get much of it…. but when we started talking later about his teaching i understood it better.

He told about the character of God and His nature.

How we see oure own dad has a lot to do with how we see God.

I thought to me it had no impact on how i saw God compared to my own father.

But during his teaching i realized that it has some sort of connection .

Pete tried to explain that God is always the same no matter in what sort of situation we are.

Its often our view on the situation how we see God on that moment.

Sometimes its  hard to see God as who He is and not to put Him in a box, because of the situation you are in then.

On a morning he told us to go outside , take a leaf or a stick and "write" down all the things what is standing between us and God.

And trow it into the water, let it float away.

I realized that my pain and grief was still standing between me and God.

I did it and it helped , i don't know how but i felt like i was really letting go of that pain and grief.

Pete told us that whenever it comes back to us , The Holy Spirit reminds us of that day when we did that. 

So we can say to ourselves ; i let it go ! no more.

By showing us images of the universe i saw God's majesty in it.

I felt so little, realizing that He made that.

So beautiful he made the universe and still He wants a personal relationship with us.

In that moment i forgot my own things and just was amazed by the greatness of God.

I loved how Pete asked a lot of question and by doing that he showed us that he himself also dos not have all the answers.

At a certain point i got a lot of questions i never even thought about.

I liked how he showed God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit though a little acting.

I really learned from that.

He showed us what can be a barrier to bonding.

Abandonment, Desertion, Seperation, Death, Rejection, Neglect.

When we recognized ourselves in it , we could say that and be prayed for.

Also a thing a like was the clip he showed us from Rob Bell- Rain.

He was walking with his son in the forrest, it started raining and his little son got so wet and started crying really hard.

He took his son and held it safe in his arms.

Just like God does when we are in storms in our life.

God sees our tears!

He says to us ; " Dad know the way home, We are gonna make it, I love you buddy"

I learned a lot from his teaching.

God's father heart is caring and loving and waiting for me and i want to keep on seeing Him like that even when its hard.