A lesson for me...

Yeah , Week 2 !!!!

Hearing God's voice,

In week 2 we talked about hearing God's voice, i liked it although i find it difficult to hear Him.

But then again …isn't He always talking to us ….walk with me when i explain what i learned this week :)

I red a lot off books and The Bible,  sometimes a scripture came to my mind and i thought by myself : " is that You, God? "

But most of the time my mind was not focused on Him , i got easily distracted ….Facebook, work , friends….

So in that 15 minutes i gave to God every day,  i expected Him to speak to me and answer my questions.

I think most of us do it like that….admit it!

Being here i learned what it ment to love God with you're whole heart.

( im not saying im already doing that, i still need to get rid of things only God can help me with) 

I need to give Him my full attention.

How…? with my full schedule ? with my full-time job? 

Today when i was cleaning , i was thinking about all the things i still needed to do , ( finish my pictures, (it was not going good) update my blogs , both english and Dutch, do laundry , call to my mom and dad, spend time with God..)

But than a picture came to mind….Martha , u know that story? (i hope in English her name is Martha to) she worked so hard but forgot to spend time with Jesus and she got a little frustrated because Mary didn't do the cleaning and just sat there with Jesus.

I felt like Martha….i know the best place is sitting where Mary sat but why do i find so many other stuff to do ( to start with , my pictures weren't  good, i felt presure, my laundry needed to b done!, mom has high blood pressure so i thought talking to her would calm her a bit) 

All these things kept me from spending time with God, but thinking about this, i realize only He can help me with these things.

These are some things i wrote down when listening to Lucie .

He is A God of Love…..

Sin is standing between Him and me….wrong thoughts are keeping me away from opening my Bible, Satan dos that, my mind is sometimes my enemy.

God wants to trow my sin away so we can have a wonderful loving relation.

I have to renew my mind with The Truth …God's words.

I have to understand that i have The Light inside of me, it doesn't matter if im shy .

Have the desire to make a difference.

Walk in the water with God like Peter did, don't be like the disciples who stayed in the boat.

I learned that when i want to hear God , i need to spend time with Him.

I need to call Him (prayer)

I need to let Him in ( my heart)

I need to read His Words , His loving guidance ( The Bible)

God spoke to me…

Yes , thinking about it makes me amazed….The God Who created the earth spoke to me….wow.

He spoke to me in Isaiah 54:6 and 62:4.

He showed me that my inner pain was standing between Him and me.

He told me what He started in me He will finish .

And to concentrate on each day at a time. 

Im human…a sinful human being, i get worried easily …i need to look at what i wrote down (and read His Word) everyday to remind me of the fact that He loves me .

I need to remind myself who i am….A Child Of God….yes The One who created the earth ;)

My journey so far.

My life in Hernhut.

So im here, im in Herrnhut….and i survived the first week.

One week of introducing YWAM to me …one week of brand new things in my life.

A new start? a new life? a new direction in my life….is it new? is it something temporary ?  its definitely the start of something!

Thats how im  gonna call it ; the start of something…and only God knows what that "something" will be!

Cuz i truly don't know where this will lead to.

This new thing is called YWAM…and this new thing is called DTS.

setting yourself apart from ur normal life and spending time with God.

Easy ?…….. NO……it go's deep!

Praying…and than really praying. trying to hear God's voice, trying to do His will.

Bible reading….no not 3 verces and than done, no we read the whole book , out loud.

3 months of lecture 3 months of outreach.

6 months of setting ur mind on God.

If ….u go for it

If…..u open up.

If ….ur willing to let God break you.

If…..ur willing to let the bad come out of u and be changed by God.

so not easy …cuz can i completely trust Him?

Am i willing to let God control every espect of my life?

I will get to know me…and hopefully this "me" will be changed according to His will.

I made this decision .

Why did i made such a big decision ?

After working as a hairdresser for almost ten years i needed change, I loved my work but i started thinking is this what i want tot do for the rest of my life?

Working, eating, sleeping working, eating, not that its wrong but i wanted to make a difference.

And after a difficult time i was ready.

Ready for change…to be healed …to give my time to Him… 

And what more He could do, i didnt know at the time.

It took me quite a while to discover what it was that i wanted to do ….( yep i thought i had a choice )

So i looked on the internet and start searching : " Israel, volunteering" .   I have a big heart for Israel , and i wanted to do something in Israel .

But couldn't find anything…. than i came across a site from YWAM Hernnhut.

I became curious ….i talked to a lot of people; asking what they thought i should do….at last i talked to my pastor.

He thought i should do it  but he also wanted to ask God what He thought of it.

The pastor heard His voice in a sermon, God said to Moses; "Go" but i wanted the confirmation for myself and God did that….He took away my fears,my doubts and cleared the way.

So i listened ..and applied ….i got excepted :)

Im here almost 2 weeks….The first couple of days i was pretty sick .

But when classes started i felt much better! 

The first week went by really fast, a lot of new things and at the same time God was beginning to work in me.

I didn't know how to handle it ….i missed my family and friends but we are starting to really be a community , that helps.

The lessons we are getting are really deep, a lot of tears are being shed.

Some things are still difficult , like trying to hears God's voice but im resting in faith.

I learned a lot , God really loves me ….i knew that in my mind but now i know it in my heart!

3 Different persons said it to me..

How much u love someone u don't like that will also be how much u love God , and how u see God , that is The God u gonna show to other people.

It also got to me how Lucie told about sin….sin = selfishness.

And how Satan does his best to put lies into oure heads.

When i stop to fight and focus on God sin's gonna let go.

My past will not tell me how my future will be!

God's love was here al the time.

Personally God spoke to me through Isaiah 54:6 and 62:4

I love the time we have Worship. 

To listen to praise songs and pray .

Till next time ,

Pia:)