"And thats who i am"

For a long time i didnt know what i wanted .
I always knew it.
I had plans, dreams and goals.
But at a certain time that changed.

I completely changed. I lost interest in life.

"What do u want?
What do i want....? I know it, but cant put it into words.

I trust God that He will direct my steps.
I have no other choice.

Christmas time

Christmas,
The Light of the world, how thankful i am.
Silent Night... Bing Crosby, sing me another song.
Snow,so beautiful
Hot chocolate milk.

T'is the season and i love it!

Some pics from my trip to Spain.

Spain;

At the beach, The Sagrada Familia, Camp Nou,
Park Guell, vieuw from the balcony from the hotelroom.
And the last picture i took when we left airport Schiphol.

Thank you

I started working again (hairdresser).... my feet are hurting like crazy from all that walking around :/

Luckily i can share  my experiences with customers about YWAM and tell them about God.
I talked to this really friendly lady about Israel, she and her husband are also crazy about Israel.
We had a good talk , later she came back to give me a 9 hour dvd about Israel and the Holocaust.
Really friendly!

The next day her husband came to the salon  , who happends to be a journalist and a television host .
In his tv show he presented a lot of story's about Israel.
He wants to give me some information books about Israel :)

Thank you Jesus for blessing me with these people :)

"Its the end of the day ..."

Its bin one month since i came back from DTS Herrnhut.
This afternoon i went to the birthday celebration of my pastor and i had an amazing talk with a lady about my time with YWAM.
It was good for me to talk about it, because sometimes it feels like it didnt happend.
Life is so uhm ..so the same as it was before DTS.
There have bin some changes ofcourse but i remember one of the leaders saying ; ' 6 Months will not bring you big changes, 2 years will do that"

At first i did not wanted to believe him, but being home i can see that what he said is true.

I feel like i had a glimpse of what that change could be , how it would feel.
It was just a glimpse....

But i know now that it is possible , that what i experienced these last 6 months was real.



                                           I want more of You, God!

Brake every chain...

I am holding on to the words:

  "There is power in the Name of Jesus, to brake every chain"

Welcome home ...:/

Coming home...

Means hearing all the bad stuff that happend the last 6 months..
We dont tell you when you are far away, but we will tell you when you come home and bomb you with it... :(

Welcome home!

My welcome home party, it was great!

God is good.

Im back home.

I dont know how i can share about the last 3 months, Ethiopia Germany....and back home.

I saw God's hand.

In every country, but also in me.

3 months in Addis (the capital city) we worked with several organisations.

I liked working with Hope Interprise, giving Enjera to the poorest of the poor.

Making new friendships, having fun but also being stretched.

One time we where walking on the street and Sierra saw a boy lying on the street...she asked me do u want to go see if he is oke...i doubted ...but we looked.

He was having a seizure....she knew what to do.

The boy was doing better later.

What if we didnt went over to him? what if we kept on walking? what if it was me lying there?

I would want people to help me.... am i the good Samaritan ? it was trough God we walked over to him.

I made me think about how willing i am to help another person in need.

Germany was beautiful , the sun made every thing so beautiful.

My parents came for Graduation.

It was a great 6 months.

God changed me , i know that He is with me, i know how amazing oure God is.

That He has the best for me, that He has an plan for my life, a wonderful future.

Not without pain, but with Him .

He is my strenght.

Can i have this forever ?

Prayer , worship , community living , Chai tea, friends, sun....God

I dont wanne miss all of this when i go back home ...

Moments from Africa

Good times in Africa. I am missing that life of exploring. Reaching out to people and living in community!

David Gava

This 2 weeks we had David Gava...

What to say about him....it where 2 intence weeks!
The topic was The Holy Spirit.
We learned a lot from him , i never gave The Holy Spirit a lot of attention .
Maybe i never heard a lot about Him or i put my focus more on God.

It was very opening to me to see who The Holy Spirit truly is , what He can do inside of us and to hear about the gifts of The Holy Spirit.

David gave us homework, we had to prepare a sermon of ten minutes about Matthew 13.
We could pick our own topic as long as it was one of the parables.

The parable i took was the one about the hidden treasure and the pearl.

"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up; then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field.  "Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls, who, on finding one pearl of great value, went and sold all that he had and bought it.

There where many parables about the kingdom of God, and it showed the kingdom in many ways.
To me this parable about the Kingdom means that The Kingdom is Jesus, the faith we have in Jesus, the way to The Father we have in Jesus.

Its a treasure hidden in the field....
Faith is a treasure..... i feel like ones u have it u realise how much of a treasure it is.
I have a friend who is from Israel , he studied the new testament 2 times but he still not believes it.
He did not find the treasure.

In the verse it says that the man in his joy goes and sells everything he has...
In his joy; that stood out to me , becous i had a lot of trouble with having joy in my faith.
I was depressed for a long time, had no hope, had no joy or what soever .
I can deffinitely say that God pulled me out of it and learned me how to laugh again.
To find that joy again, it somethimes still not easy.
In the beginning of this DTS i had "flashbacks" or how u want to call them but i got in that depress mode again.
Luckily God put a lot af praying people on my path, thats what they like to do here ;)

The man in the parable sells everything he has just to buy that treasure.
It made me think of how valuable my faith is to me.
With that i thought about all the storys im reading in this book about persecuted Christians.
Would i give my all for my faith? would i give my life for my faith?
How far would i go?
To my shame i thought about all the times i actually didnt wanted to go to church.
Or all the promisses i made to God, every day , to spend more time with Him....
And every time i failed, somethimes i said ; if i would spend the same amount of time i am on Facebook , to my Bible ...i would be a pastor by now.
So thats where i was in my faith.
Luckily im decided to do a DTS ;) haha

The second parable tells about a man searching for pearls.
That made me think of a book i once red about Keith Green ( read it if u have not red it before, its good!)
Keith and his girlfriend are looking for that something in life, they are looking for the pearl.
They try to find it in many different believes but they end up finding it in Christ.
Christ is that pearl!

This was my sermon i prepared, it was a bit different becous i didnt used my notes ,
 i guess it truly was The Holy Spirit talking trough me ;)
In the beginning of this DTS i really had trouble with speaking in class.
But God helped me  , im still somethimes nervous but i know now that God is bigger than my fear.
Everytime it stil can be a struggle for me but God helps me to speak!
So when i had to do the sermon i was really nervous , but when i walked up there , infront of the class.
I felt like i had to share my thoughts about this message, i had to.

I wanted to.

And God helped me !

Mini Outreach Ukraine

Outreach Ukraine

 What a journey, we have experienced so much,and personally.
After a long journey we arrived late in the evening , we stayed in an after-school daycare.
Here come the children of approximately the 7 poorest families of the village, they eat there to.
There was a girl from Germany who volunteered to work there for a year, Mimi was her name, Louise knew here and thats how we got there.
So friendly! and delicious muffins and cakes she baked for us ... the other women who worked there often cooked for us and the food is very good!

 On Wednesday we went to the bazaar, I wanted to take pictures but a man followed us and he did not want us to take pictures.
Then we went to sort of a concert.
The children danced and sang, nice to see.
 In Urkaine they celebrate Women's quite big so Thursday we went to church to celebrate women's day.
There was a long table with all kinds of good food, the pastor did a sermon with short video clips (which was easier for us to follow it) they did a game and a woman said a poem, all about women's honor.

On Friday we went to Leviv, the second largest city of Ukraine.
Very different from the countryside, because the roads in the villages were very bad and people where poorer.
The city was more modern.
We walked around a bit, visited small market and had a great dinner at the Greek.
Then we did Street Ministry, I havent done that often so I find it quite difficult.
Some of us were playing music and singing.
 Some drew portraits of people or just chat, it's still quite difficult to talk in the direction of faith.
I bought a sandwich for a homeless woman and gave her 5 euros.

 On Sunday we went to another church congregation, the churches there are not very big.
One of us did a short sermon.

In the second week each of us did one day with the children of the daycare.
 I was with Nicole, she is a leader and with David.
We did a little acting game of how the Bible is the Living Word, David had to stand still.
We tried him to move but nothing works until I put a Bible in his hands.
 Also we did a Bible quiz with them, they really liked that.
 The rest of the group told the biblical story of Jonah through coloring.
We did another acting game of the Good Sameritan, which was great fun and children found it fun!
We made cards and decorated muffins and then we gave them to each other.
Some red Bible texts about God's love.

 What we also did was visit the boarding school / orphanage.
There stayed many children who had disabilities.
They gave so much love, constant hugs and they wanted to hold hands.
Also they find cameras and Iphones lots of fun!
I constantly had to take pictures of them.

I thought the children knew little of the gospel but when Chloe told them about God and Jesus they knew very much.
Chloe worked with the Wordless book, the wordless book.
It had 5 colors, yellow, black, red, white and green.
Yellow stood for God, black for sin, red for the blood of Jesus, white for forgiveness of sin and green for a new life in God.
Later, she asked them questions and they knew much, if they had a question correctly they got bookmarks.
 She had made them and had put on it, God loves you in the Ukrains.

On Saturday, very early we went back but we end up very quickly in a queue for customs.
We waited 9 hours before we could cross the border to Poland.
About a half hour drive and the bus broke down.
That had already done earlier in the week when we were on oure way route to a nursing home, we did not when there.
Before we went on this trip we had prayed and someone got an "impression" / idea that we would meet someone at a gas station with a green sweater / overall Actually, I totally forgot but when the bus for the first time broke down we were before a gas station and someone with a green sweater / overall helped us to fix the van.
We then prayed for him, maybe he needed it :)
Later the second time that the bus broke down another guy with a green overall helped us.
We waited for 4 hours, the mechanic took the bus to his garage and we had coffee and tea at his home. When the bus was fixed we went on oure way.
Meanwhile we were up from 3:30 in the morning and it was now around ten o clock in the evening.. But after a ten minutes driving, the bus broke down again.
So we prayed.
Eventually we ended up in a 4 star hotel which was great.
We had the feeling that we had to talk about certain things, that God wanted us to do that.
So late in the evening, we had a good conversation, it was really good to talk about it.
I slept so good that night, a nice bed and nice shower, outside was lovely weather and the birds chirping....wonderful nature!
And the hotel was cheap , but the insurance paid:)
 The next day we had a delicious breakfast mmmm .. Around half past eleven we went on our way, we now had another bus.
Nine o'clock in the evening we arrived in Herrnhut :) safe !
Thanks to God.

Week Seven

Yes , i am in week 7 , time go's so fast!

I just finished packing for mini outreach and while im typing i am thinking if i didnt forget something.

This week was busy ….busy for me because a lot of things were in my head.

Oure topic from the speaker ( Rogerio) was not a light one, it was on Spiritual Warfare, it was interesting!

My mom celebrated her birthday and it was weird that i could not be there to celebrate it with my family.

I was thinking of mini outreach, i prepared some things for the kids.

And i was struggling with the fact that God loves me….me …Pia.

So , this was an interesting week!

I really liked how Rogerio was teaching , he is so friendly.

Spiritual Warfare

1. What, this week, has made the biggest impact on your thoughts/beliefs about spiritual warfare?

The fact that we should not be intimidated of the devil. We should be impressed by God.

How subtle the devil can be , trough media, movies like Harry Potter.

By fear we give the devil authority.

Spiritual warfare is so real.

When bad things are happening (thoughts or other things) u can just say to yourself "STOP IT" 

I really liked how he explained that to us and show us the clip.

2. Isn't it amazing how God values not what we do but who we are?! Through this week and even reaching into last week, how has God been challenging your views of your identity?

Yes , i really struggled with the fact that im His child.

I felt like i should spend more time with Him and i did that.

I know i need to be more aware of the act that im a child of God.

3.Were there any scriptures in particular that stood out to you this week? Maybe a verse that God seems to be speaking directly to you from?

Psalm 13 but especially verse 4 , it says ; enlighten my eyes .  I pray that God will enlighten my eyes and that i will see the truth.

Each more and more.

The Three and his fruits

Corey 

In week 6 we had Corey Hart to teach us , i never met her i mean personal but i did saw her in the hallways .

She smiled at me as she knew me for a long time , i really like that in her . she made me feel welcome here.

She also remembered my name , im not sure if i told her my name …

But i just like it in a person when they give u that attention , when u talk with them they look at you , they don't interrupt you're talking.

They are interested in you.

So many times when i talked to someone i could tell that person was not "there" they where thinking about other stuff, or interrupt you while you where talking  to them .

And Corey has a warming smile ! even her eyes smile .

She asked us "who she is" like is she an only child? or what kind of music dos she like? 

We based those answers on the little information we knew about her. so some things where wrong and some where good.

So often we look at God like that. What we know about Him or experienced with Him , thats How we see Him.

She gave us funny things to do like acting out a certain Psalm , We could act, sing , dance, draw or dramatic reading.

My group had to do Psalm 1 , we did that with acting and props .

It was fun to do , because of this i will remember Psalm 1 better.

Also the other groups where really good!

We talking about a tree , we had to draw a tree and she "filled" it .

The Soil     = environmental worldvieuw, the country, village u grew up in , ur family,  u cant change that. 

The Roots = You're basic core beliefs , God is infinite, God is uncreated, God has no beginning and no end, God is personal and relational, man are woman are created in the image of God, people have value.

The trunk of the tree = Values, a value assumes we all have the same rootsystem ,

We don't realize its there until its frustrates us.

We went outside and tried to see what is of value for God in Germany and ourselves.

I think God values the way we treat nature and animals, oure neighbor , the talents He gaves us, oure workduty's , He values life.

The branches = Decisions .

Oure decisions have to come out of oure value systems or they will have no strength.

The fruit of the tree = What u eventually do. 

What you think what is important what other people do , do u also do that.

She asked us ; " What are some of you're practices that you do that do not line up with what you believe"

And final the seeds of oure fruits = If oure fruits are good according to God  we can have the seeds from Exodus 20: 5+6 , He gives grace to thousands of them who love Him and keep His commands.

1. What is something that God is challenging you with this week? 

I learned that things need time to recover, God is working in me ,i need to let Him do that and give Him the time to do that.

We where reading in Exodus about the Israelites staying in the dessert for 40 years, there hearts needed to be changed and it sometimes takes a long time before we are changed.

Hopefully not 40 years but it will take time.

Me personally want bad things to be over with really fast but that will not help for recovery and being cured from it.

I learned that this week.

2. What are some things you learned about yourself this week through Cory's teachings from the "tree." 

I sometimes don't do the things i want other people to do, i learned that the way i act sometimes has to do with the country i grew up in and  the family i have.

I have to stay true to the basic core beliefs , that will give strength , realizing that God is personal makes me feel important in His eyes.

I learned to look different at scriptures because of the way we acted out the Psalms.

And some seeds are starting to grow inside of me and will bare fruit.

The different names of God , trough that u see His caring Heart.

3. Mini-Outreach! By now you know where you are going, what are your thoughts, feelings, etc.?

Im happy im going to Ukraine, i want to pray that God gives me a heart for this country and the people we are gonna meet.

I want to give my all in these 2 weeks , im really excited.

And hopefully learn a lot from it!

The week Fiona visited us .

Her teaching was about "Sin Repentence and the Cross" 

She tought us about leaking…so many times we do that, showing oure feeling with oure body , oure expressions.

She spoke about a lot of subjects we normally don't talk about 

She explained what we could do when we are in a difficult situation ( like anger, frustration or temptation)…Arrow up to God.

Pray to Him the moment u feel weak , ask for His help right away.

The thing that really impacted me was how she helped me letting go of fear i had inside me .

She wanted to have one on one talks with us, we talked at Wednesday evening.

That morning we got teaching from her, and i was feeling like i felt for a long time …just blank , num , no feelings, if i felt anything it would have bin anxiety , if u would asked me how i was doing i would have said ; i don't know.

And she saw that in me, whenever she asked a question she looked at me to see if she could some responds from me but i didn't answered her look.

But later that day when we had a one on one conversation.

She asked me how did i got her in YWAM , what was it that led me to Herrnhut.

I thought this might be the last time i see her so i might as well tell her the whole story , i have nothing to lose .

So i told her everything , i talked for almost 45 minutes , i felt like 5 minutes.

And she was amazed , i wasn't that person she met in class , i could actually talk ;p

She wondered why i was so quiet in class and not with her .

I told her about how i sometimes get nervous when im in a group , "scared" to share my opinion, " is my answer good enough? will my english talking be good?"

And i  just became quiet  and listened to everybodys else .

That nervous sometimes became much bigger and could end in panicking.

She suggested that the next day i would stand infront of the class and tell everyone how i felt and why i was sometimes so quiet.

That made me nervous 2 , but i did it , and its true , speaking out loud sets it free , it was so great seeing they all came up and stood around me and started praying for me .

That feeling is hard to describe but it was good.

And i keep reminding myself of this everytime that feeling of anxiety gets to me.

On thursday evening we had a extra session with her.

That session was also very important to us, the big wooden cross was lying on the ground , she had put bags with ashes there and buckets with soap and water.

She wanted us to worship God with oure eyes covered with sleeping masks, we couldn't watch anyone else .

We prayed to God and ask Him to reveil the  sins which where still inside us, the once we didn't confessed .

So i did that, and put the ashes on my hand , i prayed with Magdalena and she washed my hands clean , together we prayed again.

And as a reminder of this she put a red cord on my hand.

After it i still felt guilty , as if the devil was saying to me , you didn't confesed all of you're sins, so Fiona advised me to go back to Magdalena and pray with her again.

We did… and i felt walls being broken , and i prayed and prayed …

I will not forget that night.

Stories of how God worked in peoples lives.

1. Have you been inspired this week by hearing the story of Pick-a-Pocket? How so?

Yes i really bin inspired by there story's !

I'd love to listen to them , to hear God work in them.

I realized that no matter situation you are in God is there to.

Listening to Liz made me realize that God pushes trough even when you don't want to listen to His call.

I loved how she told about that she didn't wanted to do a DTS and had her reasons no to go.

But God took all these things away and guided her into DTS, i really liked her story!

The story of Ula, Ruth, Josh, Mona en Kristin was also a wonderful testimony of how God worked in them.

They had there struggles, it was not all just a romantic story; "we helped and saved people "

It was what they did (by the grace of God) but they shared the things written between the lines, the things u normal don't read.

I liked how they just started a cafe underneath a tree and gave the girls a new direction.

And how they walked from one village to another at the warmest time of the day , they listened to God.

Also the story about the baby's being killed in the tribes made a deep impact on me , this is so not what God wants.

More people must have went to the tribes and saw this awful thing, but i guess it takes a lot of faith and trust to actually do something about it.

I hope and pray that i also have the faith to listen to God's voice when He talks to me.

I also liked that Ula is now living in Ethiopia, i pray she gets her Visa.

The last teaching we had from Uly ( i hope i spelled his name correctly:) 

He spoke about action figures, and i learned a lot from his teaching .

Some quotes from the action figures ; 

"With great power comes great responsibility" from Spiderman.

" Nothing matters except the mission" from Batman.

Uly told about how Batman dos not have super power but is really smart and put these handy things in his Batbelt.

He gave us things to put in oure Bat belt ; here are some examples; 

1 train you're faith ; trust God.

2 Don not be afraid to make mistakes, dream , go for that, God is with you when you make mistakes.

3 The story of Erik;  "What would you like to do if you had all doors open"  "Don't do not do it". Have faith and go for what is on you'r heart"

4 Feed you're passion, it is you're responsibility to open up the Bible , to search God , to pray. Remember you're first love,

   have discipline to feed you're passion. Even when you don't want to, do it.

5 Endurance and commitment; Sometimes its hard because its just hard, something good can come out of it.

6 Pray; " Everything what i saw coming true, started with prayer."

7 "Do u really believe u can make a difference?"

And something that was important to me was ; " He will not allow us to miss the plan He has for us when we ask Him / pray to Him about it"

That takes away the worries i sometimes have about what God wants for me.

2. Was there anything you learned this week from the Pick-a-Pocket members experiences that you think will be helpful on outreach?

Yes they gave some "tips" that i think can b really helpful, for example ; Mona shared about having a heart for the country you are going on outreach to , she and Kristin adviced us to pray to God and ask that He would give us a love for the country.

To me thats important because i have a big heart for Israel and i know we are not going to Israel on Outreach ( still would love to go ;) 

so i want to pray and ask that God give me a heart for the country im going to on Outreach.

And really experience Out Reach, and let God work trough me .

3. It's good to make sure we are not forgetting the things we've learned about God from one week to the next. How are you practicing or using the things you've learned from previous weeks?

I read my notes again , just to study want i wrote down.

And when i'm in a bad mood i remember the things i learned.

And sometimes it feels like The Holy Spirit is telling me the things i learned about God .

Its a progress.

I always had a problem with praying, i didn't know how to pray or what to pray.

And here i learned how to talk with God , and this morning i went to prayer room and just started talking to God .

It really felt that He was listening, i know He did.

It was like talking to a person who is in the same room as you.

Pete's talking...

When Pete started talking at first i didnt get much of it…. but when we started talking later about his teaching i understood it better.

He told about the character of God and His nature.

How we see oure own dad has a lot to do with how we see God.

I thought to me it had no impact on how i saw God compared to my own father.

But during his teaching i realized that it has some sort of connection .

Pete tried to explain that God is always the same no matter in what sort of situation we are.

Its often our view on the situation how we see God on that moment.

Sometimes its  hard to see God as who He is and not to put Him in a box, because of the situation you are in then.

On a morning he told us to go outside , take a leaf or a stick and "write" down all the things what is standing between us and God.

And trow it into the water, let it float away.

I realized that my pain and grief was still standing between me and God.

I did it and it helped , i don't know how but i felt like i was really letting go of that pain and grief.

Pete told us that whenever it comes back to us , The Holy Spirit reminds us of that day when we did that. 

So we can say to ourselves ; i let it go ! no more.

By showing us images of the universe i saw God's majesty in it.

I felt so little, realizing that He made that.

So beautiful he made the universe and still He wants a personal relationship with us.

In that moment i forgot my own things and just was amazed by the greatness of God.

I loved how Pete asked a lot of question and by doing that he showed us that he himself also dos not have all the answers.

At a certain point i got a lot of questions i never even thought about.

I liked how he showed God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit though a little acting.

I really learned from that.

He showed us what can be a barrier to bonding.

Abandonment, Desertion, Seperation, Death, Rejection, Neglect.

When we recognized ourselves in it , we could say that and be prayed for.

Also a thing a like was the clip he showed us from Rob Bell- Rain.

He was walking with his son in the forrest, it started raining and his little son got so wet and started crying really hard.

He took his son and held it safe in his arms.

Just like God does when we are in storms in our life.

God sees our tears!

He says to us ; " Dad know the way home, We are gonna make it, I love you buddy"

I learned a lot from his teaching.

God's father heart is caring and loving and waiting for me and i want to keep on seeing Him like that even when its hard.

A lesson for me...

Yeah , Week 2 !!!!

Hearing God's voice,

In week 2 we talked about hearing God's voice, i liked it although i find it difficult to hear Him.

But then again …isn't He always talking to us ….walk with me when i explain what i learned this week :)

I red a lot off books and The Bible,  sometimes a scripture came to my mind and i thought by myself : " is that You, God? "

But most of the time my mind was not focused on Him , i got easily distracted ….Facebook, work , friends….

So in that 15 minutes i gave to God every day,  i expected Him to speak to me and answer my questions.

I think most of us do it like that….admit it!

Being here i learned what it ment to love God with you're whole heart.

( im not saying im already doing that, i still need to get rid of things only God can help me with) 

I need to give Him my full attention.

How…? with my full schedule ? with my full-time job? 

Today when i was cleaning , i was thinking about all the things i still needed to do , ( finish my pictures, (it was not going good) update my blogs , both english and Dutch, do laundry , call to my mom and dad, spend time with God..)

But than a picture came to mind….Martha , u know that story? (i hope in English her name is Martha to) she worked so hard but forgot to spend time with Jesus and she got a little frustrated because Mary didn't do the cleaning and just sat there with Jesus.

I felt like Martha….i know the best place is sitting where Mary sat but why do i find so many other stuff to do ( to start with , my pictures weren't  good, i felt presure, my laundry needed to b done!, mom has high blood pressure so i thought talking to her would calm her a bit) 

All these things kept me from spending time with God, but thinking about this, i realize only He can help me with these things.

These are some things i wrote down when listening to Lucie .

He is A God of Love…..

Sin is standing between Him and me….wrong thoughts are keeping me away from opening my Bible, Satan dos that, my mind is sometimes my enemy.

God wants to trow my sin away so we can have a wonderful loving relation.

I have to renew my mind with The Truth …God's words.

I have to understand that i have The Light inside of me, it doesn't matter if im shy .

Have the desire to make a difference.

Walk in the water with God like Peter did, don't be like the disciples who stayed in the boat.

I learned that when i want to hear God , i need to spend time with Him.

I need to call Him (prayer)

I need to let Him in ( my heart)

I need to read His Words , His loving guidance ( The Bible)

God spoke to me…

Yes , thinking about it makes me amazed….The God Who created the earth spoke to me….wow.

He spoke to me in Isaiah 54:6 and 62:4.

He showed me that my inner pain was standing between Him and me.

He told me what He started in me He will finish .

And to concentrate on each day at a time. 

Im human…a sinful human being, i get worried easily …i need to look at what i wrote down (and read His Word) everyday to remind me of the fact that He loves me .

I need to remind myself who i am….A Child Of God….yes The One who created the earth ;)

My journey so far.

My life in Hernhut.

So im here, im in Herrnhut….and i survived the first week.

One week of introducing YWAM to me …one week of brand new things in my life.

A new start? a new life? a new direction in my life….is it new? is it something temporary ?  its definitely the start of something!

Thats how im  gonna call it ; the start of something…and only God knows what that "something" will be!

Cuz i truly don't know where this will lead to.

This new thing is called YWAM…and this new thing is called DTS.

setting yourself apart from ur normal life and spending time with God.

Easy ?…….. NO……it go's deep!

Praying…and than really praying. trying to hear God's voice, trying to do His will.

Bible reading….no not 3 verces and than done, no we read the whole book , out loud.

3 months of lecture 3 months of outreach.

6 months of setting ur mind on God.

If ….u go for it

If…..u open up.

If ….ur willing to let God break you.

If…..ur willing to let the bad come out of u and be changed by God.

so not easy …cuz can i completely trust Him?

Am i willing to let God control every espect of my life?

I will get to know me…and hopefully this "me" will be changed according to His will.

I made this decision .

Why did i made such a big decision ?

After working as a hairdresser for almost ten years i needed change, I loved my work but i started thinking is this what i want tot do for the rest of my life?

Working, eating, sleeping working, eating, not that its wrong but i wanted to make a difference.

And after a difficult time i was ready.

Ready for change…to be healed …to give my time to Him… 

And what more He could do, i didnt know at the time.

It took me quite a while to discover what it was that i wanted to do ….( yep i thought i had a choice )

So i looked on the internet and start searching : " Israel, volunteering" .   I have a big heart for Israel , and i wanted to do something in Israel .

But couldn't find anything…. than i came across a site from YWAM Hernnhut.

I became curious ….i talked to a lot of people; asking what they thought i should do….at last i talked to my pastor.

He thought i should do it  but he also wanted to ask God what He thought of it.

The pastor heard His voice in a sermon, God said to Moses; "Go" but i wanted the confirmation for myself and God did that….He took away my fears,my doubts and cleared the way.

So i listened ..and applied ….i got excepted :)

Im here almost 2 weeks….The first couple of days i was pretty sick .

But when classes started i felt much better! 

The first week went by really fast, a lot of new things and at the same time God was beginning to work in me.

I didn't know how to handle it ….i missed my family and friends but we are starting to really be a community , that helps.

The lessons we are getting are really deep, a lot of tears are being shed.

Some things are still difficult , like trying to hears God's voice but im resting in faith.

I learned a lot , God really loves me ….i knew that in my mind but now i know it in my heart!

3 Different persons said it to me..

How much u love someone u don't like that will also be how much u love God , and how u see God , that is The God u gonna show to other people.

It also got to me how Lucie told about sin….sin = selfishness.

And how Satan does his best to put lies into oure heads.

When i stop to fight and focus on God sin's gonna let go.

My past will not tell me how my future will be!

God's love was here al the time.

Personally God spoke to me through Isaiah 54:6 and 62:4

I love the time we have Worship. 

To listen to praise songs and pray .

Till next time ,

Pia:)